Cupcakes and Cartwheels

2012-02-09T08:00:00.001-07:00

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Bragging Time

2011-10-25T07:40:00.000-06:00

I have to brag about how smart my son is.

Yesterday was our first parent teacher conference ever! I was really nervous going in to hear what she had to say. I don't know why because I know my boy is smart and doing well.

Well anyway I went in and she told me he is already writing the way they want them to write at the END of the year! WOW! He is so ahead in his writing. I cried when she showed me a picture Judah drew and then wrote "I want to be a doctor". Judah has never told me this. I never encouraged him to say he wants to be a doc or anything so it was completely HIS idea.

Of course there are things he needs to work on and has room to improve on. He is right where he needs to be with patterns, numbers and everything, but he is a bit behind on reading (which is a little weird since he is writing so well). He can only count to 28 still and that is where he was at the beginning of the year so that's the second thing he needs to work on.

She told me that when report cards come out, the grades are rated by numbers and 3 is the highest.

She said not to worry about Judah getting many twos because he is just a little sponge and is learning at a very rapid rate.

My boy is so smart it made me cry! I love him!

After parent teacher conferences my friends Diana and Brandi all went out to take the kiddos to FroYo which is a frozen yogurt place. Thanks Di for buying my kiddos ice cream! I appreciate it!

Of course a post is nothing without pictures :)

My smart man who looks kind of like alfalfa. He just needs the little point in the back of his hair haha!

Post eating before cleaning him up! This boy GOBBLES up his solids :)

My daughter is a GOOFBALL AND A HALF! :)

Makena, Diana's daughter. She is in Judah's class and she is doing great as well :)

All the kids and Diana playing

Simon says comment on this post! :)

Duck Duck Goose!

Emma and Ora playing.

It has been a while.

2011-10-23T10:53:00.000-06:00

It has been a long time since I have blogged. I need to keep up with this more often.
A lot has happened since I posted last.
My new nephew was born! He is just the sweetest little man. I love him.
My cousin Katie had her baby girl. I got to visit her in the hospital so sweet.
Many people I know have recently had babies or have gotten pregnant.

Here are some pictures:

My newest nephew Mr. Benjamen Anthony Hurchal Rolando

My new little cousin Nora Jane Jacobson

Nora with her grandma, my aunt Marian

Pictures of my kids and other family members/friends :)

An age progressed picture of Judah. He looks like a mix of both my nephews Arron and Kenny!

Judah loves babies!

My mom and I took Judah and his cousin Becca out to see Lion King 3D

Me and the hubby

Cant believe he is big enough to hold his own bottle now!

Or anad her friend Emma

Sleepy squash boy.

Gnome Ari

My early bird watching Carebears and cuddling with cocoa bear (daddys bear from when he was little :)

Judah's kindergarten picture! :P. SO handsome. My scanner is broken so thats why I took a pic with my phone.

Grandpa reading books to Judah and Ora at the hospital!

Just some pictures

2011-09-05T08:04:00.001-06:00

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Haha.I put Ari on his cousin Becca while he was naked!

Great book! I recommend it!

My Ari Patrick

2011-08-26T19:47:00.000-06:00

So a few days ago, more like a week ago or so, we woke up one morning and noticed that our little Ari's eyes were dilated differently.
We took him to our PCP who sent us to the pediatric eye doctor.

Turns out our baby boy has an astigmatism.
Not a big deal as it is a common thing, but they also want to rule out horners syndrome.
They do this by using a special eye drop and if it makes the eye that doesn't dilate properly dilate, it could mean horners and then we would have to get him in for an MRI.

I hope it is negative because I dont want to put my baby to sleep just to get an MRI.
They have to anesthetize babies because they move too much.

Anyway. Thats about it. I will keep everyone updated on how it all goes!

At the eye doc after dilating his eyes with the first type of eye drop.

After the eye doctor in his cool baby sunglasses to protect his poor dilated eyes.

Here you can see the different sizes in his pupils.

My baby girl is 3!

2011-08-26T19:34:00.000-06:00

I can't believe my little lady is 3 years old now!
She is such an amazing little girl.
She is happy and loving.
She is outgoing and loud.
She is sweet but obnoxious.
She is my little me.
She is my twin.

She looks like me and acts like me.
I always said if I had to deal with someone like myself I would go insane. Well, she is just like me and she drives me insane every day.
I love her to the max anyway.

She is so beautiful.

I can't picture my life without her.

My boy started KINDERGARTEN!

2011-08-20T08:39:00.000-06:00

I can't believe my oldest child has started KINDERGARTEN already!
He's so big and was so brave the first day! He's amazing.
I, of course, cried like a baby.
It's bittersweet with him going to kindergarten.
It's sad to see him grow SO fast, but like my wonderful husband pointed out, I should be happy because some people don't ever get to see this day.

It is so real to me that some people don't ever see this day because I am a volunteer photographer for Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep.
Many people lose their precious babies early in life. Some before they are born.

I am happy my children are happy and healthy. I love them so much and I am glad I got to see my boy off to his first day of kindergarten.

Here are the pictures from my phone!! I will get the pictures from my camera later!

My baby is 3 months old!

2011-08-11T18:19:00.000-06:00

Mr Ariah Patrick Lee,

I cannot believe you are already 3 months! Time is FLYING by. Faster than ever.
Soon you will be going to Kindergarten just like your big brother and I am going to be left wondering where on earth all the time went.

Please stay little as long as you can! I love you my boogie man.

He is getting so big!

Pictures again

2011-08-09T09:25:00.000-06:00

LOL! Love his eyes. The flash frightened him

I have the most destructive kids ever. It drives me crazy. I cant even let them play in their room because they do this!!!!

Aww my first baby is starting Kindergarten on the 18th!

School

2011-08-01T09:19:00.000-06:00

I have decided to go back to school to become a nurse.

I am excited and nervous, but I need to be able to support my kids if something were to happen to Jonathan.

I want to work in either labor and delivery or in the NICU.
I heard they rarely hire right out of school students for NICU so I would probably start out in L&D and eventually switch over to NICU.

Anyway. Thats all that's new really.

Scavenger Hunt Sunday

2011-07-31T17:21:00.000-06:00

Walking Empty Streets

Repeating Patterns

Floor

Now and Then

NOW

THEN

Finger tips

Being Myself

2011-07-30T08:26:00.000-06:00

I have read over and over again that to gain readers just be yourself and not try to compare yourself to other bloggers because you will always think there is a better blogger than yourself.

This is so true.
It got me thinking, who am I in the blog world? What do I want to post about?

Well I am not very good with words, but I love pictures and videos.

SO my blog is going to be mostly pictures and videos. I will write things here and there when I get the urge or feel like I have something to post about but I will not post random crap because it's quite boring for me to write that stuff when I feel like I am just blabbing on about nothing and I imagine it's not too fun to read either.

Well that being said here are pictures and videos!

BEACH

2011-07-28T08:03:00.000-06:00

We went to the lake beach yesterday.
It was so fun and so desperately needed.
I got to get out and have some fun.

It ended up raining which ruined my plans of not getting too wet but by the time I got to the car I was as soaked as if I had dunked myself in the water! lol.

After that we drove around the state park to let the kids try and spot wildlife and they saw some deer.

Here are pictures of the beach!

So tired

2011-07-27T07:58:00.000-06:00

I am so tired.
I feel like my body can't handle what is required of it.

I am so exhausted all the time. and I just want to sleep most of the time.
I tend to be grumpy too often and too snappy with everyone.
I wish to not be so.

That being said I lead an amazing life, though boring at times, I really am blessed.

I am blessed to know Jesus Christ as my personal Savior, as I know he takes care of me in situations that I could have never gotten through without my relationship with Him.

I have an amazing husband who loves me and sticks by my side through thick and thin.

An amazingly smart, handsome and sweet 5 year old little man.

A beautiful, goofy, precious 2 (almost 3) little girl.

And a big, cuddly, happy but serious 2 month old little boy.

I have parents who love me and still sacrifice their own comforts and finances when their children/grandchildren are in need.

I have the best sisters anyone could ask for, they are my best friends.

I have a new friendship that was/is/has been found in an unlikely place with my sisters ex boyfriends new girlfriend. She and I just click.

I have amazing inlaws who love and pray for us daily.

I am blessed through my husbands job that keeps a roof over our heads and food in our stomachs.

I am just blessed all around. I couldn't have asked for a better life.
This is the best life ever, better than I ever imagined!

This was when I was in labor with Ari. 7+ cm and I wasn't in any pain

Panties Heads!

I am a volunteer photographer for this amazing group called Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep. If you don't know what it is, check it out at www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org.

5 Years Old!

2011-07-26T19:40:00.000-06:00

I can not believe my baby is 5 years old already!!

I did a mini photoshoot 2 months late with him. lol

Look at that adorable dimple!

I think this is one handsome/silly/goofy/adorable/amazing/precious little man. I love him so much!

Headband

2011-07-25T22:58:00.001-06:00

I made this adorable headband! :)

Interview with Judah at 5 years old

2011-07-23T13:40:00.000-06:00

Idea taken from Toddler Awesome

What is your full name?
JUdah David Terbush

What age are you?
5

What is your favourite colour?
Red

Who is your best friend?
Becca

What is your favourite animal?
Kitty Cats

Where are you going to work when you are grown up?
I don't know

What is your favourite movie?
How To Train YOur Dragon

What is your favourite book?
I don't have a favorite book

What makes you happy?
playing

What makes you sad?
getting in trouble

What is your favourite food?
Mac and cheese

What is your favourite song?
Lollipop by Mika

My kids are growing up!

2011-07-22T08:10:00.001-06:00

Mandy from She Breathes Deeply wrote a post that really spoke words that I have felt and am feeling about my beautiful children and them growing up. You can read her post here.

This is the comment I left her:

I couldn't have said it any better myself!.
You took the words right out of my mouth, except for the part where you said you wonder how you could love another child as much as Lily.

When I got pregnant with my second (my daughter) I cried a lot through that pregnancy thinking "Am I going to be able to love this baby as much as I love Judah" and then I would be at peace for a while until the thought "Am I going to love the baby more than I love Judah" and it kept going back and forth. It was an emotional time for me!

Once I had her I realized my love wasn't split, or that I loved one more than the other but that my heart grew with having her.

Then I got pregnant with my third and had no problems. I knew my heart would just grow.

This is what I am adding on so I didn't ramble on her blog!

Now I see them growing and thinking about how fast it is passing and I get sad thinking about them not needing me anymore.

Soon they will be pre-teens, then teenagers then adults.
It's going to fly by like the past 5 years has!

I can't believe my Judah is going to be in kindergarten this year!!!! NEXT MONTH! Awww.

He is getting so big and I am going to cry so much when he has his first day. But I know he will enjoy it!

2011-07-18T20:42:00.001-06:00

My first tattoo

My second tattoo.

It's amazing how much my children can look like my nephews and nieces!

Family Reunion

2011-07-14T08:32:00.001-06:00

We had a Terbush family reunion two Sundays ago. It started with a photoshoot.
A family friend took the pictures for us.
After the photoshoot we all went to lunch. We went to a brewery for lunch and it was DELISH!
I had a cobb salad. So yummy.

After that we went to Mr Biggs Fun House and had a "talent show" which basically consisted of people just being silly.
It was quite funny.
Then we got to go play around at the fun house. We played Laser tag, Go Karts, Mini golf and so much more.

After we were done at Mr Biggs we went to dinner at a mexican restaurant that was not all that great. I was beat so we went home after that and went to sleep.

Here are a couple photos from that day!.

Grandma and grandpa with all of their family!

Our little family. Thank goodness for Weight Watchers. I will be loosing a bunch of that weight.
But Cute picture if I do say so myself :)

The Hubs and I. We don't have many pictures of us together because I am usually behind the camera. I need to get in front of the camera more often.

And my little Ari sleeping at lunch.

^^These were all pictures taken by the family friend.

Now down below are pictures taken with my phone!

When life gives you lemons.... take pictures of them!

A picture colored by one of my children. I am not sure which one!

Judah Anna and Thomas on the bumper cars. They had so much fun!

Anna and Judah at dinner!

Hubs feeding Mr. Ari. at dinner

My sleepy girl at dinner. Shes so pretty.

More pictures.

2011-07-13T20:02:00.000-06:00

Pictures of time with the Kiwi Cousins!

2011-07-08T09:10:00.000-06:00

We took the Kiwi cousins downtown one day they were here.
It was fun walking around and showing them the city.
Being from New Zealand their architecture isn't as advanced as ours here in Denver I guess.

It was fun just hanging out with them.
I am sure going to miss all of them.
We only get to see each other every 5 years! Thats sad :(

Judah has to be just like the boys!

PIctures!

2011-07-07T18:10:00.000-06:00

Miss this Kitty

Random me

We went to water world. It was SO much fun!

Zeke face planted on the deck in Nana and Poppy's backyard

He was blowing raspberries on my cheek

Cousin Matthew adoring Mr. Ari

I hope my children still sit on my lap when they are 21!

Made this cute dish cloth. I gave it to my friend Kali because she liked it!

LOL! Kathi always gets mad when I take her picture!

Judah added a smiley and heart!

Weight watchers

2011-06-29T10:11:00.000-06:00

So I got signed up for weight watchers!
Last time I was on it (before I got pregnant) I lost a ton of weight so I said after baby #3 was born I would start again.
I finally got enough money to do so. I will be taking weekly pictures or maybe bi-weekly pictures of the weight loss.

Also the hubby said I could get a tummy tuck after I lose the weight.
That will be in quite some time as I have over 100 pounds to lose!
That is ridiculous and I am upset I let myself get this way.

I will be taking the pictures before every meeting which will be every saturday and hopefully I will see some real improvement very fast. I don't want to be this way any more. I am sure it's a cause of my fatigue and what not.

Friday Saturday and Sunday

2011-06-27T10:09:00.000-06:00

Friday was so much busy fun-ness.
My husband had his exit interview in the morning and I had a psych appointment. I thought I was stuck at my appt because brilliant me left my wallet at home nut luckily it was free parking that day!
We got to hang out afterwards for a bit we got some breakfast and then dropped the kiddos off at their Nana and Poppy's house to do preschool.

It was nice to be able to TALK to my husband and not deal with other things.
We also went to my sisters and my sister and I went to Kalli's apartment to hang out and see her babe Kendra.

We had a lot of fun over there. Kalli made us a delicious lunch which was SO nice of her.
We just talked and relaxed.

We then took pictures of our little ones next to each other and Ari is so BIG! He is as long as Kendra but skinnier.

(Oh I took Ari to the doctor and he is in the 95% for height 92% for weight and 75% for head circumference.) Big boy!

Anyway, Friday evening we went out to dinner. We went to La Fogata which is my absolute FAVORITE mexican food restaurant.

Saturday was a fun day as well! We relaxed most of the day and then had Jonathans Goodbye Long View nad Welcome Kiwi's party.

Jonathan got a new job! YAY so this was his departure from his old job party, and it was welcome to the second round of kiwi (new zealanders) family to come visit.

It has been 5 years since we see them. Then when Judah is 10, in another 5 years, we weill visit them in NZ. It's a switch back and forth type thing. Last time we went to NZ I had so much fun except for the plane rides. I HATE flying.

Anyway, the party was a blast except I fell asleep SO early it wasn't even funny.

Then Sunday morning we went to my in laws and had some Duffy Rolls with all of the kiwi family. After that we all got ready to do some stuff.

The boys went to Mount Evans and did a small hike. (I will have to try to get the pictures from them so I can post them.) Judah went with the guys.

Jonathan took Ora on a Daddy Daughter date to get frozen yogurt and home to try to nap.

I took Ari with me and the girls all went shopping. I got new swimming shorts to go over my swimsuit. I got the kids water wings, and some lip balms.

Went home and we all just relaxed because it was HOT outside and it was nice sitting in the nice airconditioned house.

That evening we had dinner with my mom and dad.

It was a great weekend. Here are pictures of the weekend!

THIS IS MY FAVORITE PICTURE^^

2011-06-24T03:45:00.001-06:00

Some Crafty Goodness

2011-06-22T08:24:00.001-06:00

If you are interested in any of these face scrubbies check out whoopdwhoop.com! It's a currency free craft swapping place!

Bath puff!

Gnome hat

Bib

Wednesday blog hopping

2011-06-22T08:01:00.000-06:00

Sweet son

2011-06-21T11:59:00.001-06:00

I just got this email from my mother-in-law. It truly touched my heart!

Hi, you two -
Just wanted to share something amazing, simple and powerful your son shared with me yesterday. We had been watching Super Book on the big floor cushions and I went into the kitchen to do something. Judah began to laugh - not loudly, but more of a laugh of discovery and delight. He came up to me, smiling from ear to ear and said, "Nanna, I just talked to God over there on that cushion." I said," That's awesome Judah! God loves it when you talk to Him." He replied, " I was saying 'thank you' to Him. God likes it when we say 'thank you' to Him." I was reminded in the midst of my life full of pressing needs and desperate prayers that thanksgiving is the way I am come into His presence, and He will meet me right there, just like He did Judah. What an awesome man of God you have!
Love,
Mombert

Just pictures

2011-06-21T09:25:00.000-06:00

I dont feel like writing a post. I am too tired and I don't know what to write. SO I will just post pictures.

The man got a vasectomy. Had to sit on frozen peas. No more kids for us!

This is petunia. Ora calls her Tuna lol

Cousins!

Blue eyes!

Kiwi's are here! (New Zealanders). Jonathans Aunt and Uncle with little Ari.

Potty training

2011-06-20T15:52:00.001-06:00

How cute??? Very cute!!! Potty training with nana.. hopefully this picture shows up

posted from Bloggeroid

Irritated

2011-06-20T09:36:00.001-06:00

I am so irritated. Once again my
computer is screwed up. This always happens when my husband works on someone elses computer.

Ugh

Friends

2011-06-18T06:33:00.000-06:00

The other day my friend Kym came over to hang out with me and the kids.
Her daughter Grace is 3 and just about as tall as Judah my 5 year old! Big girl.
Also I got to be at Graces birth and her little brother Elijah's birth I was the photographer.
I don't know if I posted about that or not, but I feel pretty good that I was special enough to be able to attend both births.

I have attended 5 births (not counting my own childrens births).
I was there when my niece Becca was born, when my niece Addie was born, when my friend Autumn had her baby Violet, when Kym had her two babies.

I can honestly say there is nothing more amazing than watching new little lives come into this world.

I think about life all the time. How amazing it is really. How we are born into this world so tiny and helpless and grow to be old and wise. It's pretty interesting to think about!

Pictures of my friends baby Elijah and Ari.
Oh and Elijah is 2 months older that Ari. My kid is BIG!

How cute are they!?!?!?!

Blog hopping Friday!

2011-06-17T04:06:00.003-06:00

Rough mommy day

2011-06-16T15:48:00.000-06:00

I am having a TOUGH mommy day.

Woke up at 6 to feed the babe and stayed awake. My daughter was up at this time as well.
Baby projectile vomited all his food all over the place.
So, I clean him up and put all the puke covered stuff in the wash. I come back upstairs to the main level when I hear "MOM LOOK WHAT ORA DID!"

She had taken her clothes off, then her diaper and wiped poop all over. That was fun to clean up, lemme tell you.. ugh...

Tell the kids to get ready. Go to the store and get some stuff we needed and went to the pharmacy to find out they didn't have enough phenobarb in stock. Luckily the amount they gave was free but I have to go back tomorrow to get the actual prescription. Try to give babe his meds and he spits it out.

Get home and try to feed the babe who WONT EAT. I try everything but he just cries and cries.

Older two kids are just fighting constantly.

I feel like I am going to loose my mind and I am on edge.

I did get some pictures of them today.

Hoping to find some local bloggers!

2011-06-15T08:55:00.001-06:00

I live in Denver CO!

Walk

2011-06-13T14:11:00.000-06:00

Yesterday I decided on a whim to just go on a walk with Ari.
We talked... or I talked while holding him, just telling him about the trees and cars and pool and so on.
I know he doesn't understand any of the things I was talking about but I really felt more connected with him afterwards.

It's been hard to connect/bond with him as well as I did with the other two kidlets and I think it's because I am not able to breastfeed and what not.

I don't love him less, I just have a harder time bonding, but we are working on it and I am enjoying him.

This was probably my favorite walk ever. Just me and my baby.
Love.

Beauty

2011-06-12T14:10:00.000-06:00

I have been struggling with self image since having my second baby.
After having my first baby, I lost all my weight within two weeks.
After my daughter it stuck around until I joined weight watchers.
Now... now I am a whopping 220lbs.

I feel fat and ugly.
I feel lazy and tired.

I need to loose weight, but I not just because I want to look better.
I need to do it to feel better, be healthy and do it for my children.

I also need to remember though, that God loves me no matter what I look like.
He made me perfect.

I love this song and could listen to it forever.

Who doesn't love a good photo dump?

2011-06-11T17:27:00.000-06:00

Making a mess as usual!

She was lovin on me. She acts like a cat when shes loving. She rubs her face on my face :)

My mom made this adorable quilt for Ari.

This was his coming home outfit that didn't fit :) The back wouldnt button!

And he's on the blanket I won in a giveaway! Cute huh?

This is my cousins girl Felicity.

Playing with balloons!

I love it when they are little enough to take their photos without them moving all over the place.

Also, we no longer think that the bumps on Ari's face is baby acne. We think he's allergic to something. I think he's got sensitive skin because he had no bumbs until we used a knitted blanket for him. Maybe yarn is no go for a while. I hate that because I love crocheting and if he can use anything I make it will bum me out.

One Month

2011-06-10T21:29:00.000-06:00

My little man is already 1 month old!
I can not BELIEVE it. He's such a sweet little man who LOVES to be cuddled.

He is also wearing 3-6 months old clothing! He is such a big baby boy!

He is so alert. So awake and just today I got my first smile from talking to him today. I carried him upstairs and put him on his brothers bed, leaned over was chatting with him and He just kept smiling at me.

I love the smiles.

It kind of makes me sad that he's a month old and has been home a total of 1 weeks and a day.
I missed out of so much especially because of my PPD & PPA.

The thing is, is I know I need to look ahead, to what God and life has in store for me, but I look back and dislike just about everything about those first 3 weeks with him in the NICU.

He's home now and thats all that matters.

Oh about the NICU, they wanted to feed him 3 oz every 3 hours, but Ari wouldn't do it. He refused to eat like that. He kept loosing weight.

They finally sent him home and now he's a whopping 11 lbs 8.5oz. Granted thats not big for being a month old after being born at 10lbs 13oz.

PIctures of my little one month old.

What happens when you kiss a hungry baby :P

Baby foot and big sisters hand.

Tiny toes

Total case of baby acne

Tiny fingers

He kept opening his eyes SO WIDE!

Poor baby with his acne.

Tomorrow I might post some pictures of the other kids and some more of him. I may have a busy day though. We will see!

Tired

2011-06-09T19:41:00.000-06:00

I am so tired.
I forgot how tiring being a mother to a newborn is AND I have a wonderful husband who does half the night feedings.

The problem is, is Ari cries a lot! More than his brother or sister does and we try gas drops and everything we can think of but he just cries.

We are both so tired.
But our precious little man is so worth it.

Tomorrow he will be one month old.

I will do a bigger update tomorrow about it and other stuff as for right now, I am going to go shower since I have not showered in days because every time I try to Ari cries.

He's to hoping he allows me to shower. I feel yucky.

Sponsors wanted

2011-06-07T10:04:00.000-06:00

I have never done sponsoring, so I am offering space on my blog for FREE!

Contact me at mum.n.wife.to.jdt@gmail.com.

I am mostly interested in doing giveaways with my sponsors!

Projects!

2011-06-07T09:42:00.001-06:00

Here are a couple things I have made recently!

Check it out

2011-06-06T08:28:00.001-06:00

My baby boy is 5!

2011-06-04T19:46:00.000-06:00

Judah,

I can't believe you are 5 years old! You have gone from a tiny, quiet little 4lb 9oz premature baby to a fairly quiet and reserved boy. You truly has a heart of gold and is not your typical boy. You are so careful with your new little brother and were SO excited to have him come home.

I told you I was SO excited for him to finally be home with us and you said "Mommy, I am more excited than you are that Ari is coming home!" I asked if that was so. You said "Yes, I already am!"

You are also like a little daddy. You love to look out for your sister and brother. You try so hard to protect them. You make my heart ache with love.

When you do these things I can't help but fall in love with your personality and sweet disposition! You make my life so much fun!.

I love you my little man!

Love Mommy

Newborn

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5 YEARS!

Friday Flashback!

2011-06-03T09:39:00.001-06:00

In December of 2005, a little over a month after we got married we went on a trip for a family reunion in NEW ZEALAND!.

It was the first time I had ever been on a plane because I had sworn I would never get on a plane in my life. Well that didn't work out so well.

It also didn't help that before we left New Zealand I had a nightmare that our plane crashed! UGH.
16 terrifying hours on a plane the next day. I made sure to call before we left to tell my parents I loved them in case anything happened and bawled on the phone.

I was sure we were all going to DIE on the way home!

Well here are some pictures from that trip!

Graffiti

Weird little plant I found

My Mil Fil and Sil

The hotel we stayed in, in Auckland

Stormy weather

The strangest looking trees I have ever seen! They look too perfect to be real, but they were 100% real.

Ocean goodness.

I look like such a baby! I was also 10 weeks pregnant with Judah! This was a dinner "cruise" thing and it had the BEST mussels I have ever eaten!

I wanted to swim with these people in the river!

First time I had ever been to the ocean! It was fun! I was playing fetch with some random dog lol.

Jelly fish I found on the beach!

Starfish!

Best place for fish and chips ever!

Emily and cousin Hannah.

Jonathan and I.

Miriam and my FIL.

Fil, David, Matt, Emily, Mil and Michelle in the background.

Beautiful

So thats only a few of the pictures I took :)

Also, did I mention, I had the WORST allergies while there. I was so miserable with allergies and morning sickness!

Giveaway!

2011-06-03T09:14:00.001-06:00

Check out this giveaway!

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Embrace the Camera (June 2, 2011)

2011-06-02T22:27:00.000-06:00

Spent the day with my baby today. We were both very tired!

Owl Plushie giveaway

2011-05-29T10:36:00.000-06:00

Check out the cool giveaway over at To Sew With Love!

Click here!

PPD & PPA

2011-05-29T09:05:00.000-06:00

I struggle a lot with PPD and PPA.
I ended up in the "looney bin" as I call it in a jokingly way, because I DO get help there.
I was struggling and feeling really bad and just wanting to die after I had Ari. I went to talk to a counselor and they said I needed to go to highlands to be evaluated and so I did.

I was in for just under a week.
I was feeling fine. I had no problems so they let me go.

The day after I was discharged I was hit with the anxiety, so I am trying hard to fight past this thing.

Please forgive my lack of updating, I will be back as soon as I feel better!

Huge giveaway at Lovella Bowtique

2011-05-29T08:54:00.000-06:00

Huge giveaway at Lovella Bowtique!

click here to go to the site!

Birth Story and Pictures

2011-05-26T12:00:00.065-06:00

Ariah Patrick Lee T.
Born May 10, 2011 @ 37 weeks
10 lbs 13.5 oz
21 in long
14 in circumference head

On Tuesday the 10 of May, I woke up at around 2:30. I went to the bathroom and noticed a little bit of blood. I ignored it for the time being. I went to go lay back sow. On the couch and felt a sharp cramp in my lower stomach.

I called my husband and he asked if there was a baby on the way. I said "I think so!". He came to me and asked what I wanted to do. I said I wanted to take a shower. While in the shower I was feeling contractions. Timed them when I got out and they were coming eery 4 minutes lasting 30 seconds. I didn't not hurt at all so I almost just stayed home but decided to go in. We got the kids ready and dropped them off at my parents house.

We got to the hospital around 4 am, got admitted and walked to labor and delivery. On the way up I was laughing at the contractions because they didn't hurt. I was fully expecting them to tell me to go home but when I got cecked they said I was 7 cm dilated. They said that my bag of waters was bulging as well.

I was not dilating fast like the women in my family tend to do.

Well I ended up getting stuck at 9 cm dilated for 4 excruciating hours and finally asked for my epidural. The epidural didn't take I was then begging for a c-section because I knew I was going to be having a big baby and the doc had told me it was a possibility that I would need one. The nurses ignored me and kept saying I needed to try vaginal so on and so forth, but after 4 hours and nothing progressing I knew it wasn't going to happen. Finally my doctor came in and said we needed to do a c-section. I asked how long it would take to get me in and everything and he said 15 minutes. I was crying saying "I don't have 15 minutes. I need the pain gone now. ". My husband was so scared. He said I has look on my face that he had only seen one time before and tha was right before I tried to OD on ambien.

They finally got me in and gave me my spinal and the numbing was such a relief after so long of hard painful labor I started falling asleep. I forced myself to stay awake so I could are my baby before they took my baby away.

I got one little glimpse of him before they took him to clean him up and what not. Then I got to see him for another split second before they took him to the NICU.

I was zoning out and falling asleep during the sewing up and what not of my wound.

I just rested during the time I was in the recovery room.

I didn't get to see Ari until later that night when the meds wore off and I could move a little bit. I was too sore to move too much.

Ari is still in the hospital as of today. He has had to be on methadone and fenabarbatol (sp) for withdrawl symptoms.

He was also growing as a baby of a gestational diabetic mother, even though I didn't have diabetes but his lungs were under developed so he needed to be intubated for a while.
He is currently on a nasal canula now.

My baby is just so beautiful and I am so in love with him!

Oh yeah. He also had to be put in little restraints because he was strong and kept pulling off all his leads and was trying to pull his tube out!

Happy big brother!

Myself and Judah. Don't mind my looks. I don't look so hot after my c-section.

Judah meets Ari for the first time!

Finally not intubated anymore so I got to home him!

ONe week old!

Ari and his little monster I won from a giveaway!

Yes that is a size one diaper. lol My newborn needs to be in size 2 diapers! :)

I have been away for days. More like weeks.

2011-05-25T09:12:00.000-06:00

I have been gone for quite sometime.
I had a very hard time delivering Ari and ended with a c-section.
I after a few days of having Ari I got my severe PPD and PPA.
It was going on and on. All I did was sleep or when I woke up I would be crying.
I wasn't eating. I just wanted to die. I was so miserable.

Well, we decided to get me in to see a therapist and they recommended that I go back to Highlands Behavioral. I call it the "looney bin".

They adjusted my meds and got me stable and sent me home. I was in there for about 6 days.

I got out yesterday and got to see my kidlets and my little Ari. I got to feed Ari for the first time as well. It felt nice to hold him close to me and just love on him. He got tons of kisses that's for sure.

Speaking of Ari, he should be coming home this weekend! I am praying that everything goes well and he can actually come home.

They are weening him off of the methadone and as soon as that's done he should be coming home to be with his familia where he belongs! :)

Just wanted to let you all know whats been going on. I am going to be posting a birth story soon so keep your eyes open for that!

Just one picture of my mothers day flowers!

going to be mia for awhile

2011-05-16T02:02:00.000-06:00

Dealing with ppd. And Ppa. Please forgive the lack of updates as I work my way through this.

Some pictures!

2011-05-14T10:58:00.001-06:00

I know you all have been waiting for picture of my little man.
He is so sweet, and strong, and resistant and so many other things. I love him more that I could have ever imagined!

Here are some pictures, and when I get the energy and time I will post a full birth story.

He is so big! He also has little restraints on his wrists because he kept pulling all of him connections off. Stinker lol.

BIg hand! You should see how LONG his fingers are!

I keep looking at him and telling Jonathan that he doesn't look like our child!! lol. He looks so different from Judah and Ora. But one thing that makes me know for sure he's mine is his tiny cauliflower ears :) Just like mama.

TEENY TIIINY EARS!

He is our SUMO baby!

Hey look. A picture of me! Rare. But I need more pictures of my kiddos and me, and now that I am not pregnant I will do a LOT more picture taking with them!

Judah draws very well!

Love

My boys like to give me a run for my money and make the first few weeks hard on this momma!!!

Judah was SO excited to meet Ari. It melted my heart!

No more restraints or sedation! He gets to move and stuff now!

Holding daddys hand!

Aww I loved holding him! I wanna hold him more!

Very mixed emotions. I was so happy I was crying to being able to hold him, but crying because I was sad to have to leave him in the NICU as I went home. We will visit him everyday until my man comes home!

That is all for now. These are all just phone pics. I have some other pictures and videos to play later once I upload them! :)

Ariah Patrick Lee T. has arrived!!!!!

2011-05-12T07:31:00.000-06:00

My precious little man has arrived!
He was born May 10, 2011, I like it, 5/10/11.

He was born at 37 weeks 2 days and is a BIG BOY!
Weighing 10lbs 13.5oz. Almost 11 lbs!!!! Imagine if he stayed in until 40 weeks!

I did end up having a c-section so that is why I am in the hospital still. Ari needs to stay because despite me not having gestational diabetes he grew like a baby with a diabetic mother and his torso is "over developed" and his lungs are under developed. He is intubated and in the nicu. He will probably be here for a week and a half or so.

I just wanted to announce his arrival into this world!

I will post pics whenever I get a chance!!

Sugar Bee Crafts: sewing, recipes, crafts, photo tips, and more!: Repost: She Left Proof

2011-05-08T19:55:00.000-06:00

Sugar Bee Crafts: sewing, recipes, crafts, photo tips, and more!: Repost: She Left Proof: "For Mother's Day, I'm reposting this post (to see all the comments from last year, go HERE ) with some updates at the end. I came across..."

Grump.

2011-05-06T07:31:00.000-06:00

I have got to be the grumpiest person alive right now.

My unborn son is HUGE and I am MISERABLE.
I have been taking Evening Primrose Oil and drinking Raspberry Leaf Tea to try and get my body to start progressing more since my last appt at 1 1/2 cm dilated.
It's been a week and yesterday along with the supplements and tea my friend Kym and I went on TWO walks. I ended up in pain and almost went to the hospital due to the contractions as well.

Well on the way to the hospital I decided I just wanted to go home and lay down and relax. I came home. Still contracting but fell asleep.

I woke up several times last night from contractions and some would be so strong my intestines would hurt and start cramping up.

I am up this morning. No more contractions really. I am glad I didn't go to the hospital because I HATE going, just to be sent home without a baby but with one BIG BILL.

I figured I would go if it got super bad or if my water broke. Which neither happened, and my appointment was today so I would see what he had to say.

I broke down crying today when I husband left for work. All I wanted was for him to stay home with me because I am SOOO tired and miserable, but he had to go.

I am in desperate need of help. I feel like I can't do anything right now because I am so sleep deprived and sore. I guess I will just have to suck it up and deal with it.

Two pics from one of our walks yesterday.

Giveaway Alert

2011-05-05T09:22:00.002-06:00

Check out this great giveaway over at Mom-A-logues!

CLICK HERE!

Very cute!!

Some of my recent crocheted items!

2011-05-04T20:57:00.000-06:00

First is the dress I made for my little lady Ora.

I love the octopus :) I think he's cute!

I also crocheted some rings for the first time. I think they came out well!

I crocheted two blocky dish cloths as well! :)

I crocheted this pretty black and white shawl!

I crocheted these 12 point star dish cloths!

I crocheted this cute bib as well! :)

And lastly here is a cute bag that I crocheted as well.

If you are interested in any of these items, you can buy them over in my Etsy shop!

Giveaway Alert!

2011-05-01T18:45:00.000-06:00

Win a pearl pendent over at HeavenlySavings!

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Also visit- www.purepearls.com

OB Appointment!

2011-04-30T06:35:00.000-06:00

So I had my OB appt yesterday.
I am dilated to 1 1/2 cm.

We talked about Ari's size and C-Sections VS Vaginal delivery.

The problem with vaginal is that Ari is growing as if I had gestational diabetes and his torso/abdomen is measuring larger than the rest of his body.

The worry is that if I do vaginal and he is a big baby, his head could come out and then his shoulders could get stuck causing him and then they could potentially damage the nerves in one of his shoulders causing that arm to be paralyzed.

I also brought up the fact that I had that hernia before getting pregnant with him but forgot to tell him until now. He recommended that if we do have a c-section to contact a surgeon to repair my hernia as well so that we can kill two birds with one stone.

So I don't know what is going to happen. I guess we will see.

And I leave you with a picture of my silly boy, Judah sleeping in an odd position.

Giveaway Alert!

2011-04-30T05:57:00.000-06:00

Check out this great giveaway over at To Sew WIth Love!

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GIVEAWAY ALERT!

2011-04-28T11:10:00.002-06:00

Win a cute dress for your little girl!

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Want colored contacts?

2011-04-27T08:19:00.000-06:00

If you want to win a pair of colored contacts head on over to ratsandmore.com to enter!

The contacts come from http://candylens.com/!!

Have fun!

Wordless{ish} Wednesday

2011-04-27T07:47:00.000-06:00

Another Giveaway Alert

2011-04-27T07:43:00.000-06:00

Win custom Boutique Business Set! or Iron on Accessory labels!

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GIVEAWAY ALERT!

2011-04-27T07:11:00.000-06:00

A great fabric shop giveaway!

Check it out!

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Etsy

2011-04-26T14:22:00.000-06:00

I only have 3 items in my etsy store but thought I would share anyway!

Cute Blanket Giveaway!

2011-04-25T08:45:00.000-06:00

CUTE BLANKET GIVEAWAY OVER AT MOM-A-LOGUES!!

http://mom-a-logues.blogspot.com/2011/04/dandelion-baby-minky-blanket-review.html

Cute Necklace giveaway

2011-04-24T04:15:00.002-06:00

Cute Necklace giveaway! Check it out!

http://thejohansonjourney.blogspot.com/p/give-aways.html

Supermom's HUGE giveaway!

2011-04-23T07:56:00.002-06:00

You HAVE to go check out supermoms HUGE birthday giveaway!

http://supermomalysha.blogspot.com/2011/04/birthday-giveaway-extravaganza-week-big.html

My monster baby

2011-04-19T21:15:00.000-06:00

At my last OB appointment I got a U/S to get an estimate on how big my little man is.
At 34 weeks he is measuring about 37 weeks and his estimate weight is 7 lbs 9 oz!!!!
He is going to be HUGE if the u/s was accurate!

I have been wondering why I was so much more uncomfortable with this baby than I was with Miss. Ora.

Well full term Ora was 7 lbs 1 oz. Ari's estimate weight is OVER her full term weight.

My doctor is talking about c-section to make sure the baby doesn't get stuck, but I am terrified of having my stomach cut open to take my child out. I want a natural birth where I can hold him immediately after he is born. I want to bond immediately.

I don't want to be strapped down and my baby whisked away from me. Makes me want to cry.

I think I am going to tell him I want to have this baby like my other two.

This has been so stressful. This entire pregnancy has gone the complete opposite way of how I wanted it to, and it's looking like birth is going to be the same way.

So I co-slept with Judah in the beginning. He has really never slept in his own bed/room. Yes he is almost 5. He has been sleeping in the basement on the couch with his dad. I have been sleeping on the couch in the living room and Ora in her playpen.

I keep telling Jonathan I wish we were "normal" and slept in the same bed, but Jonathan needs to sleep on the couch in the basement or he gets really bad acid reflux, and since about 25 weeks in my pregnancy, my groin has been killing me and so I have to sleep in certain positions to feel ok. The couch is the best, not to mention the living room is the only room with a ceiling fan and I need to sleep under it or else I sweat like crazy.

I have been doing a lot of crocheting for my etsy shop. I am so excited about it! I hope people will buy my items! :)

Have a goodnight everyone!

GIVEAWAY ALERT!

2011-04-17T08:41:00.000-06:00

Lovestiched is having a great giveaway! Win a beautiful new camera bag! To enter go here!

I finally finished it!

2011-04-14T08:45:00.001-06:00

So I have been working on this for a few days. It was so fun and I can't WAIT to put it up on etsy!

This is my very first etsy item. Now that it's finished I want to start up my etsy store tomorrow when the hubs gets paid!

Tell me, what do you think?

Which do you like better? I know its hard to tell with one picture of it on a person and one on a hanger, but I can't tell which is better so I definitely need some input :)

These are just camera phone pics. I will be taking photos with my Canon possibly later today with my beautiful niece as my model.

Linking up with:

Get to know me!

2011-04-11T11:37:00.000-06:00

I have seen a bunch of the blogs I follow doing this or things very similar.

So if you want to ask me any questions feel free to and I will answer them when I get them!

You can either just comment here with your question, or you can email me at mum.n.wife.to.jdt@gmail.com

I'm loving the look of my parents refinished floor even though there are very deep stains that are impossible to remove. It's original flooring from when it was built in 1952!

My parents bought this house in 1983! Been living there for a LONG time. I grew up in that house since I was born until I moved in with my husband.

Many many memories

Mom-a-logues is having a giveaway!

2011-04-11T11:18:00.002-06:00

Check out the giveaway on Mom-A Logues!

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Dinner with the Kiwis!

2011-04-10T08:11:00.000-06:00

So some of the Kiwi's came in on the 8th around 6 pm.
It was my husbands Aunt Allison and Uncle Alan, my mother in laws sister and brother in law.

Since we all only get to see each other about once every 5 years or so, we all had dinner last night in Longmont at my husbands grandparents house.

Later this week Allison and Alans kids will be flying in. I think everyone is excited to see each other. The last time Jonathan saw his cousins was shortly after he and I got married in '05 when we flew down to New Zealand (my first time out of the US!) for Nana and Granddads 50th wedding anniversary.

Come June and July, my mother in laws brother Christopher and his wife Beth will be coming along with their 4 kids. They will get to meet Ari as a baby! None of the New Zealanders got to meet Judah or Ora until they were older.

Anyway back to last night.
We all just got to hang out and talk.
I don't really talk that much, I tend to be more of an observer. I basically only speak when spoken too lol.
It was fun.

On the way up there and on the way back Jonathan and I listened to a tape about parenting and it really made me realize that I can not raise my kids on my own. I need the Lords help or there is no way I will be able to cope with all the frustrations and hard times in parenting.

Also my kids are not my "property" and I don't own them. They are precious gifts that the wonderful Lord has loaned to me and I know when they leave my house when they grow up, I will be giving them back to God and He will be the one to watch over them and take care of them. I will no longer have the constant contact with them that I had when they were small and it's not "All I can do is pray for them" it's "Praying for them is the best thing!"

I need to teach my child right from wrong. I need to teach them how to be good Godly men and woman! It's my responsibility to show them the way to Christ.

I am raising these precious gifts from God and He is trusting me to do what is best for them.

This scares me a lot. Sometimes I wonder why He chose ME to be their mother when most of the time I feel like I am failing as a parent.

All I know is I need to pray and ask God for wisdom, patience and guidance in my role as a mother from here on out!.

1 Samuel 1:27-28 (New International Version)

27 I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. 28 So now I give him to the LORD. For his whole life he will be given over to the LORD.” And he worshiped the LORD there.

On a different note. I am lame and really need to start taking my Canon with me places again. I am just so tired all the time and I don't want to lug it around. My phone is so easy because I can snap the pic and upload it right away. Oh well. I am sure I will eventually get around to it.

I won a giveaway! Today=not a good day

2011-04-08T18:07:00.000-06:00

I am excited! I won this giveaway!

I am getting one for my little Ari when he is born! So exciting!

I am also thinking about waiting until after Ari is born to open my own etsy shop so I have time to make things for the shop.
My problem is, is I always have several projects going at one time and they tend to be quite time consuming as they are usually crocheted!

I am so tired and it's days like today that make me feel like I am not cut out to be a mother.

Its very upsetting.

Judah and Ora have been crazy and doing everything naughty and I hate when I feel like I just want to give them to someone and run away. Give them to their father and leave.
It's depressing and I can't handle it. I love my kids more than anything, but some days they just take it one step too far and I obsessively watch the clock waiting for Jonathan to get home so I can just pass them off to dad and just zone out.

Tomorrow will be better.
Tomorrow will be better.
Tomorrow will be better.
Tomorrow will be better.

Looney

I really like my baby when she's sleeping and not poking and smacking and climbing all over me!

Comfort Crosses giveaway

2011-04-07T11:41:00.000-06:00

Enter to be one or two Comfort Cross winners over at 3princesandaprincess2.com

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ohdeardrea is hosting another wonderful giveaway!

2011-04-05T20:17:00.000-06:00

Check out the new giveaway ohdeardrea has going on!!!

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The Paper Mama is hosting a giveaway!

2011-04-05T10:26:00.000-06:00

Win a Beautiful Custom 16 x 20 Portrait from Fleur Anning!

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My Dad

2011-04-05T09:18:00.000-06:00

So the other day I was at my parents visiting (I go there quite often because I get bored at home and the kids love playing in the backyard) and after being there only a short time maybe hour and a half (yes thats a short visit from me), I left in tears.

So Ora was being her typical self, climbing on me like I am some sort of playground or something, constantly kissing my stomach and hugging it and so on. I know the whole kissing thing sounds cute, but when she stands there day after day just constantly kissing and hugging (more like throwing her head on my stomach ouch) for a very long time, it gets a little old.

Well this day she was doing it, I was already in pain and I had to use the restroom as well (my dad was in there) I had been asking her for a good hour to please sit by her brother because I was hurting. I was calm this entire time and my dad finally came out of the bathroom. I gently guided Ora away saying "Watch out Ora, mommy needs to go potty" and she walked a few steps and as I went to walk past her she grabbed my leg, fell and I almost tripped over her and the catching myself part hurt like crap! (I have had this pain in my groin since about 25 weeks or so and certain movements hurt really bad). As I stumbled I got a sharp pain through my groin and my belly, pain in my back and everything and so I got mad. After an hour of her driving me nuts I FINALLY had it and snapped a bit. I raised my voice (to not even a full yell or anything) and just said "KORYN!" (her middle name which I call her a lot) and my dad comes down the hall "Cari don't yell like that".

This pushed my buttons to the point I felt I had to control. I yelled at him, a full yell and said "DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO!" and he said "Well dont be yelling like that" and so on.

I went to the bathroom and started crying. I was so angry because he didn't see most of what went on so I felt he had no right to come telling me what to do.

There are so many things I wanted to say to him, but I didn't because he is my father and even though he can royally tick me off I don't want to hurt his feelings. So when I finished up in the bathroom, I came out gave my mom a hug goodbye and told the kids that we were leaving.

I came home and vented to my husband and he seemed to agree that my dad really had no place to say anything. I was so upset I was getting sick to my stomach and my husband suggested I write an email to my dad telling him how I felt.

I also brought up stuff from the past that my dad has done towards my son that have really upset me.

1. He told Judah to stop playing with something a while back, and Judah being a typical kid didn't listen right away. My dad yelled at him "JUDAH I SAID PUT IT AWAY! WHAT ARE YOU DEAF OR SOMETHING?" and I was really upset. My dad used to say things like this to me when I was a kid and it always made me feel dumb. The last thing I want for my kids is to feel stupid. I didn't say anything to my dad, but oh how I wished I had the guts to say "Don't ever talk to my children like that again!" but I have always been intimidated by my dad which has also caused me to be intimidated by men in general.

2. Judah was being bad and ripped a hole in one of their window screens (and no I do not think he should have gotten away with it) but my dad came in and without any sort of warning smacked Judahs bottom, hard, and yelled at him for destroying other peoples property etc etc. I did not agree with the way my dad handled it and it made me mad, but again, I was too intimidated by my father to say anything which made me feel like a failure as a mother not being able to stand up for my child due to the fear I had instilled in me as a child.

My husband said to include these in my email and tell him how I would have preferred he had handled the situation.

I said "I don't know, I just didn't like what he did" and J asked me "Well what would you have done in those situations".

Situation 1: I would have made sure I had Judah's attention, and told him the consequences of his actions if he didn't put whatever it was back that I had told him to or he would get a time out/grounded from tv or whatever the punishment may be.

Situation 2: I would have removed Judah from the window sat him down and explained what he did wrong and give him a consequence for his actions. For that I probably would have made his apologize and then he would have had to do something for grandma and grandpa to make up for ripping the whole in the screen. A chore or something that maybe had to be done at the time.

I just never know what to do at the time these things take place. Once I am removed from the situation and I have time to think I come up with what I should have said or done. I hate that my brain is too slow in making these decisions.

Yesterday my husband went over to my parents to pick up some thread and rick-rack I had left over there, and I guess he told my husband that he didn't mean to hurt my feelings and that he was sorry. This caught me off guard because I never heard my dad apologize. It's just not something my dad does.

Well. Thats that. I needed to get that off my chest once more.

Sick baby

2011-04-04T18:29:00.001-06:00

My poor little lady is not feeling well.
She's been coughing all day and so much and so hard at times she has thrown up :(

I hate it when my babies are sick. I wish I could take all pain from them.

I am almost done with my nieces outfit I am making her, but my goodness, I keep misplacing things and its driving me crazy.

In the next couple of weeks I will be opening an etsy shop.
I am so excited to finally have a way to bring in some money, no matter how small.
Not to mention, it will boost my self esteem if people actually want to buy my things!

Waiting for the hubs to get home from picking up some stuff for Addies outfit that I left at my parents house.

Random pictures from my phone:

Sick baby girl

With the hat Grandma made her.

Boy with the hat grandma made him

Girl zonked in her dirty carseat. She is the messiest girl ever, I swear lol.

Judah already cuddles with his unborn baby brother!

He is adorable when he sleeps

Quite possibly the easiest shopping trip in the last 2 years :)

This is what happens when your little one falls asleep while holding a cup of dipping sauce for his fries! lol

Crocheted Dishcloths!

2011-04-04T14:02:00.000-06:00

I made some cute 8 point star dishcloths!

I made them in bright colors because again I LOVE bright colors!

I am selling these for $10 for the set!

WINNER OF THE CUTE TOOTH FAIRY PILLOW!!!

2011-04-02T09:03:00.000-06:00

THE WINNER IS COMMENTER #3!
TIFFANY at How are the Harmons?!!!

CONGRATS!
YOU WIN THE CUTE TOOTH FAIRY PILLOW!

Contact me at mum.n.wife.to.jdt@gmail.com so I can get your info and send it out to you!

IT'S A PARTY!

2011-04-02T08:35:00.000-06:00

I dont want to be the only one not partying!
SO I am joining up with the Ultimate Blog Party 2011!

My name is Carolina, but everyone calls me Cari for short. I am a Christian, learning every day how I can live a more God pleasing life. I have been married for 5 years to a wonderful man names Jonathan (Jonny). I am a 25 year old SAHM to two amazing kiddos and a third on the way.

Somethings you may want to know about me:
I am passionate about being a wife, my husband comes before myself.
I am passionate about being a mother, my kids come before myself as well.
I am spoiled rotten and act like it at times, but I hate it and have been trying to change my behaviors.
I have a dysfunctional family, and it drives me crazy but I love each and every member anyway.
I am dysfuntional, I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Generalized Anxiety disorder.
I went through a hard patch in July 2010 and ended up in a behavioral health center where I was officially diagnosed (I self diagnosed GAD for years) and put on meds and I am much better today.
I am the worlds worst house keeper.
I love sweets
I love to be crafty. I love to crochet, knit a bit, sew and scrapbook.
I also love photography and try to take good photos, but I fail most of the time, but I still have a ton of fun with it!

Somethings to know about my husband:
He is a Christian and loves God.
He is the one who has pulled me through some hard times and is my rock!
He is passionate about our relationship and strives to do his best to make me happy, I love him to death for this because I am not the easiest person to make happy with my disorders.
He is the best husband a girl could ask for.
He is passionate about our kids, we go out on a date and while we are out he always has to bring something back for the kids!
I fall in love with this man more and more when I see him playing and caring for not only our kids, but our nephews and nieces as well, he is a great man and a great father!
He does all the cooking since he likes cooking and I loathe it (not to mention he doesn't particularly like anything I cook lol).
He is a great friend to all his friends and my absolute best friend.
We met on myspace when he was going to make fun of my picture but after reading my profile felt bad and it had touched his heart and sent me a sweet message which I disregarded right away.
It took me a month for me to respond. Once we got talking I just knew he was the one. I told my mom that I met my future husband on myspace. She thought I was crazy, but I really did know somehow that he was the one.
I am thankful for the strange picture I had up on myspace or I may have never met him, and who knows where I'd be without him.

My son Judah was born 2 months premature in May of 2006 and had to stay in the NICU for 2 weeks and 2 days.
You could never tell by the time he was 5/6 months old he was bigger than babies his age born full term. He had no problem catching up.
He is a super smart kid and amazes me with all the things he does and learns on a daily basis.
He is a loving child who is learning to love God and talks about it all the time.
He tells me all the time "Mommy, I love you in the whole wide planet!"
He is a little daddy, loves to look out for his little sister and make sure she is ok.
He wants to be just like his daddy when he grows up.
He has just started reading this week and read the sentence "A fat cat sat on a mat" and a bunch of other words with his Nana who does preschool with him twice a week.
He will be starting kindergarten this coming fall and is excited about it.
He is the best little man in the "whole wide planet" and I am blessed to be his mommy.
He is 100% mommy's boy.

Ora, my daughter was born in August 2008.
She is my gorgeous little lady and she knows how cute she is.
She is my rambunctious little one who is constantly getting into things she shouldn't and driving me nuts I love her to death anyway because it's not her fault she takes after me.
She is smart and amazes me with all the things she does as she is learning new things and new words.
She is a hugger and kisser. She is always hugging someone (usually her brother and driving him crazy).
She is a typical little sister and if her brother says he doesn't want to be touched she will sit there and touch him over and over and laugh when he gets angry, again not her fault she takes after me.
She is an insomniac, like me.
She's got her daddy tied around her little finger and knows how to work him over in no time. Daddy won't admit to this though ;)
I always said I would go insane if I had to live with someone like myself, and the Lord blessed me with someone just like me.
To be honest I get along better with my son than I do with my daughter. I do not love her any less, our personalities clash more.
She is 100% daddies girl and I admit I am sometimes jealous of how much she loves her daddy but loves to drive me crazy, on purpose. Again, that's how I am. I used to purposely drive my mom nuts.
She has a very tender heart and I know she really does love me, she just has a different way of showing it.
She is my wonderful, loving, gorgeous, sweet little girl and I am blessed to call her my daughter.

Ari, my baby still in my womb.
He is a wiggle worm and I love feeling him moving around, except for when he pushes on my bladder and makes me have to use the restroom every 5 minutes lol.
I wanted another boy in hopes he would be like his big brother and not drive me nuts, but I have this strong feeling that he is going to be just like his sister, just a boy version and that scares me HAHA.
He acts more like how his sister was in the womb than how his brother was. Judah was so calm and didn't move as much and I worried about him the entire time I was pregnant with him. Ora was constantly moving and it got to the point I would beg her to stop wiggling so much in my belly so I could get a break from the kicking of the bladder and feet getting shoved up under my ribs.
Ari is just like Ora. I tend to beg him to be still for just a couple minutes :).
I cannot WAIT to meet this little man.

My Blog
My blog is just for fun. I love to post pictures videos and some giveaways of things I made.
I like to post about my kids and their new things they learn and cute things they do.
I haven't been up to par the last couple weeks because I always get so fatigued at the end of my pregnancies that I start to slack on making posts, but I am trying AND I know I will post more once I finally have this little man.

DONE!

2011-03-28T19:29:00.000-06:00

I finally finished Ari's afghan!
Its the first afghan that I have made that had to be sewn together and let me tell you. NOT my favorite thing and it felt like it took FOREVER!

I have to finish Miss Ora's. It's another one that needs to be sewn together. BLAH.

I figure I will post pics of Ari's blanket!.

This is Ari's blanket! I love how bright and colorful it is. It's just makes me happy! I can't wait to take pictures of him on it! :)

Shabby Apple Giveaway

2011-03-24T07:15:00.000-06:00

ShabbyApple Giveaway! Enter for a chance to win!

http://www.mishmish.org/2011/03/its-vintage-giveaway-discount-code.html

park and babies

2011-03-18T15:43:00.000-06:00

So, my friend Kym welcomed her precious little boy into this world at 3:19 this morning.
His name is Elijah and was 7lbs 10oz.

I was invited to the birth to photograph it. As all births are, it was a beautiful thingto watch.
I have had privilege of watching many babies be born.
My first was when my niece Rebecca was born. I remember it like it was yesterday even though she is
almost 7 years old.

The second time I got to view a birth was when my old friend Autumn gave birth to her daughter Violet.

The third time I got to experience this amazing miracle of life being brought into this world was when Kym gave birth to her beautiful daughter Grace.

Fourth was when my gorgeous niece Addie was born.

Fifth was this morning watching little Elijah being born.

I am so grateful that I was invited to view these little lives making their big appearances into this world.

I don't know if I will be able to do this anymore as thing and situations have been changing and I just don't know when or if I will ever get to experience this without being the one givig birth.

We shall see.

Also, being prgnant has really drained all my energy anstill have not edited all the pictures from the park.

I need to post pictures soon. I have been a bad blogger. Thanks to those who still follow me even when I take several days to post and what not.

I am hoping after Ari is born things will get better!

Hope you all had a wonderful St. Pattys day!

Black & White Wednesday!

2011-03-16T09:46:00.000-06:00

My super handsome son!

He makes me so Happy!

Wordless (Not really) Wednesday! It's finally finished!

2011-03-16T08:40:00.001-06:00

Don't forget to sign up for my giveaway for the Cute Tooth Fairy Pillow! Ends April 2, 2011! Low Entries!

I finally finished Ari's coming home outfit!
I think it turned out well seeing as it's my FIRST outfit I have ever sewn and I didnt have the instructions or the pattern for the collar. I had to wing most of it.
It's not perfect but I am happy with how it turned out :)

What do my wonderful readers think? You can be honest haha I won't be offended if you think it's ugly lol.

ABC's Of Me

2011-03-12T08:06:00.000-07:00

Saw this and thought it would be fun!

(A)- Age: 25

(B) - Bed Size: Queen.

(C)- Chore I hate doing: All of them? lol Dishes is my least favorite though.

(D)- Dogs: We have come to the conclusion that we are not dog owners. Love them though

(E)- Essential Start Your Day Item: food. I get sick if I dont eat breakfast

(F)- Favorite color: Green and pink.

(G)- Gold or Silver: white gold.

(H)- Height: 5'5"

(I)-Instruments I play: none.

(J)- Job Title: Mommy.

(K)- Kids: Judah 4, Ora 2 and Ari in utero.

(L)- Live: Denver CO

(M)- Mom's name: Linda

(N)- Nickname: hunny bunny? I don't pay much attention obviously

(O)- Overnight Hospital Stays: I was born with too many red blood cells and couldn't breath. When I was 12 and had strep that turned into tonsillitis. The times I gave birth.

(P)- Pet Peeve: when people talk as if they've never been to school. "Tooken" I have heard too many people say this and it drives me crazy

(Q)- Quote From A Movie: "Does the term cruel and unusual punishment mean anything to you?" -Remember the Titans

(R)- Right or Left Handed: Right

(S)- Siblings: 3 sisters

(T)- Time I Wake Up: Around 7 am

(U)-Underwear: I like them.

(V)- Vegetable I Dislike: Corn

(W)-What Makes Me Run Late: Children!

(X)-X-rays That I Have Had: for my back and for my teeth

(Y)- Yummy Food I Make: Enchiladas is about the only thing I know how to cook!

(Z)-Zoo Favorite Animal: Tigers. They are SO gorgeous!

Sick

2011-03-10T20:35:00.000-07:00

I have been unable to keep up with all the photography challenges and my 365.
I have been in SO much pain with this pregnancy and it just seems to be getting worse every week! BLAH.
Several weeks ago my groin area started aching really bad. I was laying on the couch a few days later, I was laying on the couch and I lifted my leg to turn over and get up and I heard a loud "POP" and this sharp pain go from my groin up the center of my stomach.
Barely moving hurts SO bad.

I have also been having strong braxton hicks that hurt and send me running to the bathroom to pee.
So with that being said, I haven't been able to keep my house as clean as I'd like let alone getting out and taking pictures and being adventerous.

I am hoping after Ari is born I will feel much better and be able to do more things.

I feel so guilty not taking a ton of pictures of my kids. I want to remember every little moment, but when I get big pregnant all the picture taking slows down to a near complete stop.

That is how it was when I was pregnant with Ora, Judah was 19 months and I only took like maybe 50 pictures of him that month as opposed to the 100-300 pictures a month and I felt so guilty.

So out of guilt, I took the kids out to the park today to take some pictures of them and let them have some fun.

I want to be a fun mom, but lately it's been HARD with all the pain I have been in and just wanting to curl up and not move because it hurts too much.

Well, I am off to bed. I will try and get the pictures up for you tomorrow.

Please forgive the lack of posting, it's also fallen by the wayside along with photo taking.

30 Pictures!

2011-03-07T13:40:00.000-07:00

Don't forget to enter my GIVEAWAY! It ends April 2, 2011. Super cute tooth fairy pillow!

1- Someone you spend a lot of time with:

2 - A picture of you:

I don't take pictures of myself anymore :)

3 - A random picture of you and your sig. other:

4 - A picture of something that makes you happy:

Waterfalls!

5 - An old picture of you:

Back when I decided to stop dying my hair black

6 - A picture of your sibling:

My sisters Heather and April, Me and then my sister Kathi.

7 - A picture you never posted on your blog before:

8 - A picture of a person you miss:

My Grandparents. I will see them again someday.

9 - A picture of people who know you now and then:

Everyone in this photo (besides Kathi and the dog Bo) have known me since I was born :)

10 - A picture of your favorite place:

Home :)

11 - A person you can tell everything to:

My husband. and I tell him everything. So if there is something you don't want my husband to know, don't tell me :)

12 - A picture of your everyday life:

13 - A picture from a place you love:

A swimming pool?? I love swimming

14 - A picture that reminds you of great times:

Geocaching with my little family.

15 - A class photo:

I had some bad teeth!

16 - A picture from the best day of your life:

The day my son was born

The day my daughter was born

17 - A picture that always makes you laugh:

This face my son made. HAHA

This face my daughter made! SILLY!

18 - A picture of your spare time:

Games on my phone

19 - A photo from a great night:

Funniest night ever!

20 - A picture of the people who are closest to you:

This little group of people here.

21 - A picture of someone you always have a good time with:

My little sister Kathi and her boyfriend Mike

22 - A picture of someone who means the world to you:

Well duh, like that one is hard to imagine.

23 - A picture from last summer:

This beautiful girl entered the world last summer. I love her!

24 - A photo of your closest friend of the opposite sex (not sig other):

I guess my sisters boyfriend. Can you tell I surround myself with family and that is about it?

25 - A picture of you on a favorite vacation:

When we were in New Zealand! I look like such a baby! I was 10 weeks pregnant with little Mr. Judah!

26 - A picture of an accomplishment:

First pair of baby legs I ever made!

27 - A picture of your closest friends:

Again, these people pictured here with me. I know, I am soooo boring.

28 - A random picture from photobooth:
N/A

29 - A photo that makes you smile:

I love how happy he gets whenever I make something for him. He really loves it when I do.

30 - Someone you will never let go of:

Another duh. :)

GIVEAWAY #2!!!! CUTE TOOTH FAIRY PILLOW!

2011-03-06T20:11:00.001-07:00

I finally made something I think is good enough to use in a GIVEAWAY!

I have had several different projects I tried and didn't like any of it at all.

So I have to say I am not the best seamstress but I think this turned out REALLY cute!.
I made one for my son and he LOVED it so I thought it would be fun to make one to giveaway!

So this giveaway is a cute TOOTH FAIRY PILLOW.

This cute pillow has a felt tooth sewn on and it has a hole in the top for your child to put their tooth in at night and for the tooth fairy to leave their reward! How fun is that?

Thats the bit of weird stitching, but its not that noticeable!

To Enter
Follow my blog, comment and leave your name and email address!

For 2 Extra Entires (leave a separate comment for each entry
Blog about this giveaway (comment and leave a link) +1 entry
Add my Button to your page (comment letting me know you have done so) +1 entry

GIVEAWAY ENDS APRIL 2ND! Winner will be announced April 3rd

Now that I have this giveaway up I will not be spending all my time trying to make one, leaving me more time to blog! :)

Wordless{ish} Wednesday: Project 365

2011-03-02T18:47:00.000-07:00

Project 365- Days 47-60

Day 47: This is where I go to see my psychiatrist. The building is actually kinda creepy lol

Day 48: Spazz watches over the kids as they color.

Day 49: I have been craving ice! I want it 24/7!

Day 50: We went to Joes Crab Shack (YUM) and our super friendly waiter told me to take a picture of him with my dad. lol

Day 51: We went to the downtown library. I always have to BEG my husband to take me. He hates going there but I finally got him to take me lol

Day 52: We went to the Denver Botanical Gardens. My husband's first time going there!

Day 53: I made these super cute baby leggings for my little guy due in May! I can't WAIT to use them on him

Day 54: My dads hospital board. Becca wrote a sweet little message to him the night before his surgery.

Day 55: I did a TON of this while at the hospital. I am so glad I brought it. It kept my hands and mind busy while dad was in surgery. Everything went as planned and dad is now home and recovering

Day 56: These things should be BANNED!
Or at least put a warning on the box about being addictive

Day 57: We went to Africana Cafe #2 for my "birthday" dinner.

Day 58: I am obsessed with getting fabric remnants at stores. :)

Day 59: My first attempt at binding a blanket. it's a bit wonky and I totally spaced placing an X in one of the squares but thats easy. I just wish it turned out better

Day 60: Making these seems like it should be so easy, but apparently I don't do so well.

I don't have a title

2011-03-01T11:17:00.000-07:00

I am SO tired. I didn't sleep well last night. I caught my little mans cold and I am miserable.
My head feels like it's going to explode and my entire body feels like it has restless leg syndrome.
I tried to sleep but couldn't get comfortable at ALL because of my body.

Today I have to take in Judah's kindergarten application!
I am so nervous, I don't want to send him to school yet. He is still SO little.

I was talking to Jonathan about how nervous I was and started crying and Judah told me "I won't be scared going to school mommy, I will just walk right in and meet my new friends!" awwww.
Then he asked his dad, "Daddy, why doesn't mommy want me to go to school?"

I don't want to make this any harder on him by being an emotional wreck but the tears just pour and I can't help it. I try to be strong but I have so many fears in the back of my mind that I let take control.

I just get so nervous and just want everything to go ok. I love him so much.

I am currently working on my next giveaway project.
The last one I made was NOT nice enough to give to someone.
I am very picky about what I give, and if I don't like it, its not going to be given away lol.
So lets hope this one turns out the way I have it planned in my mind!

And for fun

My grandmother Ora Jane who I named my Ora Koryn after is the little one being held. I think my Ora looks just like her great grandma! Her mother who is holding her is named Ora Annie. So the name Ora skipped a generation because my mom didn't like the name Ora. I love it though!

That is me in 40 years or so. Everyone tells me that I look just like my grandmother when she was my age, and everyone says Ora looks just like me so, this is Ora in 68 years or so :)