After those two weeks the anxiety subsided for the most part.
When my son was 15 months old I got pregnant with my daughter.
The pregnancy went well.
I gave birth to an amazing little girl who is now 3 1/2.
I was fine for the first 2 days after giving birth to her.
On day 3 the PPD hit and it hit HARD along with GAD.
I wasn't feeling well. I couldn't eat.
I couldn't sleep.
This lasted for about a week and after upping my dose of Lexapro I was basically back to normal.
When Ora was nearly two years old I got another horrible anxiety attack.
I felt like I couldn't handle it.
The toll on my emotionally and physically was too much, too hard, too painful, etc.
So I did what I thought was my only way out of the pain.
I overdosed on my medication.
I was rushed to the ER and after I became stable I was admitted to Highland Behavioral Center.
I was there for about 10 days.
I remember the first night there. I couldn't sleep. I was in pain.
My stomach hurt and I couldn't sit still. I cried and cried.
I told the nurses there that I couldn't sleep. That I was having anxiety and I NEEDED something.
They got doctors orders to give me a benedryl and an ativan.
After the ativan kicked in I remember lying there in bed thinking "wow, this medicine actually works." and falling asleep.
You see, I have the typical General Anxiety Disorder symptoms, but the ones that bother me the most are the aching stomach and the need to be in the bathroom all the time.
I sweat even though I feel like I am freezing.
I shake uncontrollably.
I can't eat or drink.
I can't concentrate or anything.
It's a miserable existence.
Well they got me stabilized on meds and sent me home.
I was doing great.
I was fine. I was so thankful that I hadn't succeeded in my attempt to OD.
Here are some baby pictures and video of when my baby girl was born since this is all about that time.
Cute. Tiny. I miss this.
This is my girl now :)
A Part 4 will come soon and that will be my last in this "series"!